I Lost Myself

I can't understand myself .

Everyone have an opinion and assertive.

What am I thinking about?

I had go though Form 4.

Two more month I will become a Form 5 student.

And I will facing SPM.

This is my problem.

How can I devote one's mind to study?

Why their result can great than me?

I had tried to be work hard,

but I'm still stay at the same level.

Why?

I'm tired.

I'm sad.

I will change to another class,5GB class.

I should in 5GA class!

When I heard  I was selected by teacher I'm 5GB class.

I was very disappointed with myself,

I felt I'm really useless for everyone.

I hate this class.

How can I enter this class!?

Like a hell!

(I will try to accept the reality)

:'(

How about my future?

Do you have plan?

 What course will you study in University or College?

 I have no idea with'it.

I just went to Education Fair,

there was many course.

Somethings interest but it is too expensive and not local campus.

Some is cheaper fees but I'm not a science student.

What can I do?

I really lost myself.

Who am I?

I'm just a daughter of my mother,

girlfriend of my boyfriend,

and I'm nothing of this world.